Trapped

Trapped ? Yeah i'm trapped in this loneliness hahaha such a mellow drama but hell yeah this is the real condition. A dramatic condition. I can't even cry in this condition. Why? I'm too lazy to do that kind of thing. I'm just too tired to cry. It just make my self look so pitiful and i hate that hahaha -_-

Spend this new year eve alone in this boarding house with many episodes of korean drama The Man Who Came From Another Star and laugh even when there are nothing funny in there. Weird ? No, i just want to be happy even with the most ridiculous reason. Since my mood not good, but then i brought my body lotion bottle, its citra pearly white uv. I brought it to spread it on my skin and then just accidentally take the lable from it and smell it and then.... WOW IT SMELLS SOOOO GOOOD AND MY MOOD JUST LIGHTED UP HAHAHAHAH. Its ridiculous? Yeah maybe some people think that such a ridiculous thing to made a mood... hello it just smells good... so whats the point from it that can make you happy? Well.. a person like me, when i just here alone almost all of my time in such a day like this... come on this is new year eve, actually i want to spend it with my family or my firends but i ended up with trapped in this room... watching some korean drama... and try to deny that i'm alone... lonely... hahaha i sadly confirm it said that i'm feeling lonely in this day. Hahah its so sad. Yeah and when i feel sad, a little thing just enough to make me happy. Such a good smell behind my hand body's lable hahahahah the smell is sooo goooooood. How to describe it? I think it is the most lovely and cute smell i've ever taste hahahahah

Today.. the last day in 2014, i hope everything is going to be better. I dont want to be trapped in lonely feeling anymore. I hope 2015 would be my year, where i can find the real happiness. And what about love ? I dont expetc too much on that thing, who knows about it ? Hahaha i will concentrate to make myself be a better person, and just let it find the way to me. Love has its own way, you know? Hahaha. I believe it will come soon on the right time with the right person. Hahahaha

Ps: i don't know if there are some grammatical errors, my brain just can't think well since i feel a little bit gloomy. No, actually its not a little but its a super duper gloomy. Kind like that... *sigh

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Lonely by 2ne1